This is my last semester of college and I am now going to transition from being a body in academia to a body in the workforce. This is a terrifying new concept because I honestly never became comfortable in academia and now I get to go be uncomfortable in a whole new arena.
In college I had certain support systems in place that offered some protections. I had disability services that provided certain accommodations that I often didn’t use but felt better know they were there. Knowing I will have to get an adult job with a disability is troubling. I don’t want to disclose my medical history with a future employer but I am also scared of failing at a full time job. I have never pushed myself like this prior.
On top of all of this I will be moving across state lines with out a car and into the home of a partner who makes more than I do. Moving in with someone when I don’t have an income also brings up a lot of feelings about gendered bodies and how they exist in relationships. Even if neither of us are heterosexual we are still in a heterosexual pairing that becomes complicated in this situation.
Taking a course of bodies has only furthered my sense of awareness about my own body in relation to myself as a person and the world at large. As I prepare to embark on this new journey it is nice to sit and reflect on my feelings about these new roles and expectations. We talked about laboring bodies in the beginning of the course and it will be interesting to see how that plays out in my life as I have almost exclusively been involved in more informal and under the table types of labor fields. As someone who is very against capitalism but living in a capitalist society it was also be challenging, especially with student loans looming overhead.
While this may sound sort of bleak, I am very much looking forward to this new life and the new problems I will face. At least to say that after 7 and a half years I am finally a college graduate.