June of 2015 is when my pain started. My doctor told me I had bursitis in my foot, so they did their normal treatment. Fast-forward to September of 2015 and my pain is only getting worse. I lay in bed at night clutching the sheets in my fists and wincing until I fall asleep.
Fast-forward again to February of 2016 and I’m coming to terms with the realization that this is just how my life will be. I’ll always be in pain, walking will always pain me to the core, and I’ll never be able to be a normal person. Friends of mine suggest that I try smoking cannabis to take the edge off the pain.
This is the first relief I’ve gotten since the pain started about 8 months ago.
When you have chronic pain, so many aspects of your life change. I hardly got any sleep because the pain kept me awake. I would get up the next morning exhausted from not sleeping which would only make the pain worse. Cannabis helped break this cycle. I could finally sleep again which gave me at least some more energy throughout the day. Cannabis also helps me cope with the new struggles chronic pain brought about.
Cannabis has been a life-saver for me. But it isn’t always seen as medicine. Maryland law makers have been stalling the implementation of medical cannabis since Maryland voted for the law back in 2014. So while law makers stall in order to make more money, I’m left curled up on the couch crying in pain when my hookup is out.
Even writing this post is risky. Since medical cannabis is technically still illegal since dispensaries are not up and running, I had to create an account completely not linked to my identity. I could get my financial aid taken away and possibly kicked out of the university all because I chose to medicate with a natural plant rather than taking opioid medication that I would get addicted to.
So the next time you hear about some huge cannabis drug bust on the news, think about me and the thousands of people who just want relief from their shitty health status.